Day 23



dissed!!!



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well, hopefully after reading the previous paragraph, you have a sense of how i feel right now. in the midst of not eating, not sleeping, puking at the rock, and really missing you, all i wanted to do was see you for ten or twenty minutes tonight. i woke up at 1:00am, took a shower, got dressed, grabbed the card i had made for you, walked over to the lower green (behind ri hall), picked two luscious flowers (they were supposed to be magic flowers, one for each paper you have to do, and having them in your room was supposed to magically help the papers to get done), got to slater at 2:15am, you were asleep, so i called, four rings, no answer, pondered my unfortunate situation, called again at 2:30am, let it ring three times, no answer, now i was sad and kind of hurt, after all, i had spent about a half hour making this stupid card, anyway, you said PROBABLY. i hate that fucking word. i asked you like three or four times if you would be awake at 2:00am, and each time you said PROBABLY. of course, you didn't know what i had planned for 2:00am, i wish you had given me a more definitive answer, whatever...i only wanted to cheer you up a little, and of course, see my sweet angel, now i can't sleep, and have to study (had a large iced coffee at D&D around 3:00am), i'm sad, feelin' kinda hurt or dissed for lack of a better word. i know you didn't promise anything, but i did say i would come by at 2:00am, and i have never (except once, and we both remember that friday night) broken my word when it comes to you. now bob marley is trying to cheer me up, but he's not doing a very good job. sometimes i feel like you just don't care...sorry for saying all this shit, but i'm in a pissy mood. goodnight...(you probably won't get this until next week or something like that...)