To write is to free oneself. Without it I am nothing. I feel that my writing is the only way that people hear my ideas, the only way I can get them to listen to me. The hard part though is letting go of something once I write it. Once I give it to someone to read over, or theorteically once I get something published, it's out of my hands. The reader can do whatever he wants to it, think that I am saying whatever he wants me to say and I'm not going to be there to tell him what it really means. And that's where I feel out of control again, just like with the computer. I might as well not have writen something if the reader isn't going to get what I'm saying.