hey, stopped by around 12:30 last night, but you were asleep (you're light was out). lizzie, i am really sorry--i've been in a really weird mood lately and haven't been getting much sleep (drinking way too much coffee, not eating, and smoking my lungs to death), producing a generally shitty feeling. anyway, i guess i've been kind of aloof lately and the last thing i wanted to do was take it out on you, but i did. i'm sorry L...i miss you so much...i've been feeling really lonely and empty these days, not because of you, but because of me. my best day of last week was tuesday night, even though i only got to see you for an hour...i'm sorry for being an asshole. i hope this e-mail hasn't weirded you out.