July 14, 93 I almost know I'm gay now. I want so badly to touch another guy. I'd do anything he asked. I just want to be close to someone I can talk to about this. I feel so trapped. Mom and dad will fucking kill me if they ever find out. And the kids at school? I'd rather die. I don't know if my parents know. I think that they may because this one time, there was an article in the paper which had addresses for places for gay teens to go. But they were all cut out. God they must know. Why are you gay Brian? I hate having to hate myself.

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